oh the life of me.

TOMORO IS MONDAY! LAME! THAT MEANS MS. HANSON! lol well anyways i had a really good weekend... Thursday (all day): Protest at the State Capital against partial birth abortion with mom rachelle and trish, then we went to olive garden, then we almost got me and rachelle's nose pierced but its really expensive in Red Wing. Friday...hmm what did i do on Friday....well Sean Bowe(my bestest friend ever) got back from Florida! YAY i missed him so much but what did i do on friday??? oh yes! I went to the Junior High Red Wing play my mom's best friends daughter was in it. It was Aladdin and it was SOOO cute. oh and i found out some crazy stuff about a guy i met like 3 months ago and there was a potential relationship but anyways apparently, we used to live on the same street and we rode in a wagon together, held hands, and played on a swing set....wierd! i had no idea that me and this kid had a past, maybe now things might spark back up between us, i mean hey, he's cute lol. Saturday: I had subsections for One Act, boy that was a lot of fun, we got 2nd place on our play Bang Bang You're Dead and will be moving on to subsections next weekend, hopefully then to state. That night i went to a the movie My Bloody Valentine, and lets just say it wasnt nearly as good as i thought it would be. I went with my Rachelle, Sean and Welsh Cody. Welsh Cody is super cute and he's from Whales. Do you know how cool awesome Whales is? Well my little brother just cut himself in the bathroom with a razor and i think we have to the emergency room cuz its bleeding like crazy...so yeah....yuck. This is natacia signin off

ugh...monday monday

monday (well tuesday but it feels like monday cuz we didnt have school on monday). the most retarded and boring day of the week. It angers me. Monday means school, and monday means ms. hanson. Boy do i dislike that woman. not as a person of course but as a teacher. i dont really think its good when you're afraid to ask your teacher for help because you think she'll look at you and roll her eyes. When your teacher gives you homework and sits on myspace the entire hour. you tend to wonder why she's really a teacher. Free internet? that would be my best guess. new semester today. i dont like my new class line up. without p.e its kinda lame....i mean dont get me wrong i HATED phy ed. but without it the day goes extremely slow and its really boring. and choir in the morning doesnt really turn my buttons in the right way either. the only thing i look forward to on mondays is play practice, and even that is beginning to get on my nerves. I'm watching inauguration coverage, man do i love obama. that man is the best looking president we've had so far. i cried watching his address...wow thats pathetic. like he matters anyways congress can just override anything they dont like. what a load of shit. i really wish this gay ass twitter thing would work with my phone otherwise i'll have to find a new site to send tweets on. oh well. well i'm pretty sure my daily awesome blog is over. Thanks for reading everone!

I have nothing better to do so why not write some more! YAY! for all of the 2 people that actually may possibly read my blog. -groan- I feel so trapped ya know. Like theres nothing going for me. I want to go to college ya know (wow that was Minnesotan of me) but it seems like..where am I going to get the money, and what college OUTSIDE of the midwest is going to want to accept little old me from Lake Shit Town minnesota, with average grades and the gayest life ever...wow new subject. Somebody told me today that blogging is retarded and only people who dont have lives blog. Hm.. well i have a life, and i have a blog. I work, go to school, and hang out with my friends, but i have a blog. And i have fun with my blog. I think maybe people are just afraid of broadcasting their lives on the internet for everyone to see. But how else is a small town goodie-two-shoes like me supposed to get any attention if she doesnt blog. Its fun. Well at least for someone like me. I love to write and i love to complain. I'm a hipster! Well at least thats what kelsey says i am. Oh lord. Hmm. i 'm pretty sure thats all for now.

demetre...

soo... there's this guy. (thats him <<<) his name's demetre. yea. i know what everybody is thinking right now. ha here comes another sappy ass love story right? WRONG! i hate this kid. i really do. but for some reason... after every single one of our retarded falling outs and restarts...i cant find it in my heart to actually hate him out loud. he's sorta become a growth if you will...like a non cancerous tumor that lives on me and i cant really see it but i can feel it and i know its there, no one else know's its there but i know its there and i keep thinking about it. and it doesnt care about me its only simply living off of me for my pure unenjoyment. we're friends but we always seem to have these crazy ass fights that hurl us (mostly me) into a deathtrap of hate and unhappiness. i really havent figured out if this whole "falling out" deal messes with him as much as it does me...but i really dont know what i should do. i mean this kid means the world to me. like if i could be with anyone. i would most definately choose him but with all the things he's put me through/i've put him through, i have no idea why i'm still interested, why i dont get sick of his i'm sorry's, or why i never stop waiting for his late night call with an "i love you" attatched to it. it seems silly because i'm 16 to feel this way about someone but what am i supposed to do. my philosophy on love is "dont tell me something like 'i love you' and not mean it, because i might do something crazy and believe it" demetre messed with me, or at least i'm pretty sure it was messing, for 2ish years of my life and led me to believe the lie that was he wanted to be with me. but he never did, my chance never came, and he never said he was sorry. i give him chance after chance when he's never even given me one. i know its easy in the eyes of the reader to say some thing like "well then why the hell do you still talk to him" but if you've ever been in love, or something close to it, you'd know why i cant just cut him off from me. its just so crazy. hmm. oh well

ugh...

There is a point where in the small town kid's life when you realize...omg.i'm not going anywhere in life. I hit that point today. and i gotta say i'm scared. my whole life will be spent in this endless circle of gossip and drama in this small ass town *cough* Lake Shitty *cough*. I really did think about it though. over a bowl of microwaved linguini and a glass of almost see through orange juice. I almost had a breakdown ya know. I'm a wanna be die hard rebel without a cause. But in this town there's no room for people like me and some of my best friends. Not like it really matters. i guess it just seems like i cant be who i want to be...even though who i wanna be is a complete stereotyped negative symbol to society. yeah...well i guess thats probably it for now. i gotta go try to make my dumb retarded twitter to work. Peace out!

This is Me

Yepp. I gotta say that is definately me. I totally copied this blogging idea from by buddy pal nate. who started one of these a week or so ago. Anyways my name's Natacia..tasha, tash..for short. I'm hoping that this bloggin deal might possibly help me relieve some unwanted stress. Ha like i said guys, boring. It'll get better...I hope. I dont feel that i need to tell you loads of things about me cuz i'm sure you'll learn lots as we go. Well...toodles.